It's Clear to Me Now

I just realized why its been so hard to send email back home (besides the fact that it is very difficult to get Internet connectivity):

When I write home, I realize how much I miss my family and friends, and then I feel deeply heartseer. For the longest time, it was to hard to even thinking about writing home...

Heartseer is an Afrikaans word that means deeply sad or heart-sore.

To my friends and family, thank you for being patient with me. I am getting better.