Friday, May 13, 2005

Small, Unexpected Moments

There are these small, unexpected moments in my life when I realize how different my views and values are from others. Sometimes when this happens, I feel deeply and completely alone.

During these times I question how I really feel and even what it is that I do feel -- like when I can't tell if an old memory is of a real event or just the fringes of some faded dream I had long ago.

I didn't always have these moments.

There are these small, unexpected moments in my life when I realize how different my views and values are from others. Sometimes when this happens I feel deeply joyous in the core of me.

During these times I know I am on the right path. I feel calm and whole and I wonder what took me so long to find this way.

I didn't always have these moments, or feel this alive.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

It's Getting Closer

Today it sunk in a little bit, it's already May. If everything goes as planned, I will be leaving for the Peace Corps in 186 days.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

One of These Things is not Like the Other

Have you ever noticed that when you are trying to get to know someone, that you think you might like, you look for similarities between them and yourself?

Have you ever noticed that when you think about someone you don't like, you focus on the differences between them and yourself?

We all have one thing in common, we are searching for happiness.

I know this is not directly related to the Peace Corps, it was just something that was on my mind.

No change on the Peace Corps front yet, I am still waiting to hear about my medical clearance -- its sounds like most of the Africa nominees are having to wait a long time...