Hard Day

Today was a really hard day for me.

I woke up with all of the positive energy drained out of me. Maybe there is some sort of energy draining gremlin sleeping peaceful (and well fed) under my bed.

I have been struggling to make it through the day.

This job is wonderfully designed
to completely test those things in me
that I thought were the strongest.

I did not realize how quickly and completely I could go from "full steam ahead" to "quivering on the floor like a blob of warm jelly".

The energy draining gremlins here have learned how to avoid my current armada of coping mechanisms, and render me completely overwhelmed. I must remember, this too is what I wanted.

This life is wonderfully designed
to completely test those things in me
that I thought were the strongest.

This too, is what I wanted,
for I was unsure of my metal,
and longed to feel my own frailty.

For in viewing what is truly weak in me,
I believe I will find a strength
that will help everyone I meet.